Saturday, August 16, 2008
â™ 9:39 PM
I remembered being laughed at for saying the wrong things at the wrong time but i also remembered how they guided and chose to educate.I entered with skewed partiality, i admit, but i remembered how i left with a different slant; not entirely, for sure, but there were moments; moments where i was pushed and made to examine my own prejudices. If there was one thing i regretted, it was how i failed to answer your question in the most effective way possible. I remain disappointed; nevermind as an individual or a professional. If only, if only. I remembered how stunned i was and the way my mind blanked out at the most inappropriate time. It was sad, for i knew you needed the reassurance; which i failed to provide. But still, i remembered how relieved and grateful i was when others sensed my discomfort and chose to save me on time. I remembered the blended, the milkshake and the milo dinosaur.
I remembered the uncle, the belachan and the reprimand.
You know, this has been one hell of a damn good learning experience. It was the first place where self-talk and reflection were accepted. It was the only place where for once, others didn't go a'dilah you are thinking too much. It was the place where i was given the freedom to think and explore and i enjoyed it very,very much. Analyzing your thoughts no longer seemed absurd or stop being so cynical, but instead, embraced widely.There are so many instances, so many "I remembered"; yet for now, i choose to keep the memories all to myself.It has been a few weeks but I do still think back and smile from time to time. For those who walked this journey with me, you know who you are and i thank you.
Goodbye,
A Fisherman's Friend.